; thinking of you.

Monday, January 23, 2006

8:39 PM

Fine. This is the second time I posting in less than the same hour. But something suddenly crossed my mind.
Don't you think it's funny how people sort of never miss what they have until they lose it?
Scratch that. It's not funny at all. It's plain sad.
I miss New Zealand. I remember when I was in NZ, all I could think about was going home, typing, strumming, lying in my own bed again ...
And now, all I can think of are the mountains, the cool air, the beautiful lakes that I shall only get to see in December.
I hate that I should feel that way. I hate that after reading so many meaningful books, I still haven't learnt how to appreciate things.
I was blind to Someone all along, and when I left, I finally realised what I lost.
I never fully appreciated all my great friends in SC and now that they're gone, I regret not getting to know them better.
I didn't appreciate the ease in which I could lose myself in all those words, in all those stories I wrote, and let hours pass by as if they were seconds. And now, I've lost that ease and comfort. It's like I can't pick up where I left off anymore.
And now, I really regret that I ever mentioned Someone in the first place. Because now ... never mind. I hope Sara isn't reading this. She better not be.

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rachel sim.
seven-oh one-ninety three.
fifteen.
~~scgs.~~
rafflesian!
guitar ensemble!
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loves her guitars.
loves her books.
loves music, both oldies and contemporaries.

loves maroon 5, my chemical romance, coldplay, mcfly, deathcab for cutie, queen, clay aiken, five for fighting, the eagles, elvis.

loves stardust, star wars, lotr, v for vendetta, babel, romeo and juliet, emma, gone with the wind, CRASH, Moulin Rouge, Breakfast at Tiffany's, The Pianist, Back to the Future, Walk the Line, The Departed

loves friends. and chandler bing.

loves david rocco, nigella lawson and JAMIE OLIVER.

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